Well, hey, that's great news that you guys are still trying amidst the test. Who knows maybe you'll get a BFP that'd be soooo cool. And I know how you feel about your DH. When mine is home, I have the same problem. He wakes up early on his own but at night he starts playing that blasted computer game like his life depended on it. Dork.....lol

Today is kind of a sad day but I just had accept that this cycle of hope is over unless I was inseminated with SUPER SPERM...lol.

I woke up this morning at 430 feeling sooo sick to my stomach like I could hurl. I had some minor uterus cramping just a bit dull. So, I used my opk and sure it enough it was positive. I was so upset because I was hoping it would stay negative indicating that maybe I ovulated on Sunday like I'd hoped but just didn't feel it. Anyway I did two tests this morning each 4 hours about and both showed that darn smiley face (ClearBlue Easy Digital opk). I did have a thought that maybe yesterday I was just testing too close together and that's why I didn't get the smiley face.

The real kicker is I called the clinic (yeah, had a moment of stupidity take over) and spoke to the same nurse again. (pause for emphasis) I swore I wasn't going to let anything she said get to me. I thought that if I acted really sweet and needy she'd be nicer. WRONG> After I told her about the positive opk she said 'That's why we like to take the bull by the horns' in other words she was saying it was my fault I missed my window of oppurtunity. I wanted to curse her out. She sounded like she'd won a fight or some thing. You know like "Ha, Ha told you so" ?

First off she didn't even want the insemination to happen. She said that right off the bat once she saw how many follicles I had waiting to release. I said I'd ovulate on Sunday (thinking my cycle was the same as usual) and so SHE scheduled me for Saturday IUI because she said some times we don't know our bodies and ovulation happens sooner.

Long story short I'm at odds with the clinic and the only other one is 3 hours away. They should have told me Clomid makes your cycle longer. But know one did. I'm not even sure if they realize it now. She even mentioned giving it to me AGAIN next cycle since it works so well. I didn't scream like I wanted to I calmly said 'or if I don't use clomid then I'll just produce on egg' (you know like I don't really understand what's going on and need her advice......PUKE) She was like 'Yes, that's right.'

I do not like her. I haven't told my husband about the troubles I'm having with the place. He has enough going on where he is.

So, I'm suppose to call them on cd1 as far as I know to start all over again. I just don't know if I can mentally do it knowing how they operate now. I do know after this first cycle what should work. All I need is the IUI and a ovulation trigger shot since the clomid will still be in my system next month.

Okay, I'm done ranting. Its so easy to let people get your goat.

I'm going to try and stay positive. I really want to have a child and these people have the toos to do it. So, I'm going to have to suck it up until I get pregnant or my DH comes home to do the job himself.

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