Re: HI Ladies
That's such a tough thing to deal with, Lacie. I think you can tell from the other replies that you're definitely not alone in having those feelings. I hold my breath everytime my DH tells me he talked to any of his friends that are in relationships, just waiting to hear that they are pg. Same way when my Mom says she talked to a cousin we don't hear much about, or any situation like that. I want to feel happy for them, and I usually do, but part of me gets really upset that I'm still waiting.
The only way I can deal with it is to do something that I know I won't be able to do when we finally have a babe. It's not as easy to do stuff like that now that DH is far away, but I go out for the night, stay out late, try to be spontaneous, have a couple extra drinks. Play your music in your car really loudly without worrying about hurting little ears. Play with someone else's kid, pump them full of sugar and then send them home to mom and dad (you can only get away with claiming ignorance and doing that when you are childless!). Sometimes I just buy myself something totally unnecessary, which I probably wouldn't do if I needed to pay for daycare. Soon enough, one way or the other, I know I won't be able to do that stuff. It's so hard. I also have stopped looking at baby stuff in the stores, because you're bound to run into a lot of bulging bellies in those aisles.
I'm just trying to make a point of appreciating the (relatively) responsibility-free life that I have for now. Don't feel like you're alone, we're all right here with you (virtually, at least). And we all understand how normal those feelings are.
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Lisa
Me -29 DH - 33 
Married June 13, 2003
Completely anovulatory without meds
10/07 - 12/07 50mg Clomid, 
12/07 - DH's SA all normal!
2/21/08 - RE consult
3/08 100mg clomid cd3-7, no follicles, cycle cancelled
4/08 - 150mg clomid cd3-7, u/s on cd14, 1 follicle @ 24mm, trigger shot on cd14 and timed bd,
5/08 - HSG looks good
6/08 - IUI+INJ #1,
7/08 - IUI+INJ #2,
8/08 - IUI+INJ #3
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